The idea for this page was designed when I was feeling wildly good about my screentime (March 2024?). I had deleted safari from my browser. I read 8 books in a month, and they were really good books. I got really into James Balwin, Philip Roth, and Jeanette Winterson. I thought I could make a webpage explaining how I did this, but it turns out I suck at having a decent relationship with my phone. Like everyone else, execpt that no one is worried about! We're all addicted and somehow we're all cool with it. A couple years ago I did a presentation on how modern digital surviellance affects abortion access. One of my friends asked me if researching surviellance had changed my relationship with technology, and the honest answer was no! I feel the same when I read a good essay about screen addiction. Or I think about the quote that goes "The cage is open, why are you still in there?" Sure, the technology is wildly addictive and regulation should be put in place, but it won't. I don't think this is my fault, but I think I'm the only one who can get myself out of the whole. This is an effort to at least scratch at the walls.
I want to stay in hell (go back)12/29/25: been thinking about this a lot. I've had so much trouble trying to get my self offline that I'm now trying to find hobbies. Coding, again, and also puzzles. Would like to learn how to Crochet. I need to be building with my hands - I miss carprentry but that's hard to pick back up without shop access.